have you ever?

my favorite poem, slightly edited, to fit my not so favorite mood.
it's times like these, in the middle of finals, in the middle of the night, when everyone is sleeping, when i start to wish things were different.

have you ever?

have you ever lived my life
spent one minute in my shoes?
if you haven't then tell me why
you judge me as you do

have you ever woken up in the morning
wondering if this was your last day on earth?
have you ever left your house
unsure if you'd return?

have you ever seen your friend get shot
outside his favorite store?
have you ever seen a friend die
from drugs he never used before?

have you ever sat beneath the stars
hoping God will hear?
have you ever seen your friend drive away
after way too many beers?

have you ever had a friend
experiment with weed?
have you ever covered up a guilt
by doing a good deed?

have you ever considered suicide
as the only way?
have you ever tried to hide youself
behind the things you say?

have you ever wanted to protect
your friends and everyone in sight?
have you ever felt such pain
that you cried yourself to sleep at night?

have you ever lived my life
spent one minute in my shoes?
if you haven't then tell me why
you judge me as you do.